Denial

I tried to find a picture of myself before I started losing weight to put up and show. In finding one, I took a good hard look at it and was in total shock. Wow, I can't believe that's what I looked like. Now, it was also taken at an event where we were supposed to wear the most terrible Christmas attire we could, so the bad Christmas sweater doesn't help matters at all, but what I realized is how much denial I was really in. While I was 250 lbs, I never weighed myself. I didn't really want to know what that number was. I knew I needed to lose weight, but I thought of myself as just overweight. After seeing this picture, I know I was a lot worse off. I can't believe I let myself get to that point and not see it for what it truly was. I think the denial was helping me to cope with it though, and coping was just fine for me at that time. Now that things have clicked and I am feeling so good, I really can't image what that girl was thinking. I know that you probably want to see this picture that I found, but I just can't put it up until I have a current one to put beside it to show you how hard I have really been working this past 5 1/2 months. So, hopefully, I will get a new picture very soon and you can see for yourself.

Are you living in denial, knowing that you aren't were you need to be, but not really wanting to face reality? If so, stand strong, make a change, and decide that today, you are going to make a turn for the better and never look back.